Review on Monday, January 20th, 2014, drizzle - clear later.

In the morning, it was prep time. I just surf the internet and then, check some part of my lesson plan.

In the afternoon, I took the final test. It consisted of writing, reading, and listening. It was not that difficult but I am not sure that I did well. It was little fun to listen to the audio because one of the voice was Dr.Schwab's. haha.

In the evening, I went to see "Frozen" again. I saw this already on Saturday in 3D. Today, it was in 2D. I love Disney's movies and this is one of the best.

The movie focuses on 'true love'. However, it doesn't focus on merely love between a couple. Rather, it shows love of family. I like this part. Love in the movie doesn't need to be love for the only one.

Anyway, I love the song. Before seeing the movie, I didn't like the song much. It sounded too strong for me.

Watching the movie, I could see the character "Elsa." She is beautiful and was born with the magical power which gets stronger. At first, she looks so afraid of using the power because of her mistake. She was so scared of her power.

Here, in the song, she becomes free and strong. Although she is alone in the castle, she is now free to use her power and feel free to test her limit. I was so thrilled to see she change the attitude.


I may go to see this movie again. :) The movie is filled with lots of lovely songs and lovely characters.

What do I want to do?

What do I want to do?

1. Study more.
 - English, German, Some philosophies, politics, teaching, etc..
2. Work hard.
3. Take my time to travel.
4. Go skiing. (Is there anyone who go with me?)
5. Rest.
6. Clean my room.
7. Read all the book I have bought but not read.
8. Run!!!! I should run!
9. Finish this program.
10. Keep in tough with GOOD people.
11. Focus on the program. 
12. Not focus on the terrible teacher in my school.
13. Do my best.
14. Ride a bike.
15. Cry, alone.
16. Meet new nice people.
17. Spend my time with my close friends.
18. Go to USA and take part in my friends' wedding. 
19. Hug my students, all.
20. Lose some/a lot of weight. maybe 10 kg? kkkk
21. Research on study abroad with government money. ;D
22. Watch movies: The lawyer, 도망자?, Frozen, etc...
23. Watch dramas: Korean dramas, American dramas, British dramas...
24. Being lazy.
25. Eat real nice tasty food and beer. lol.
etc, etc, etc...


So dry here, the office! My eyes are dry too much!

Review on Wednesday, January 15th, 2014, sunny and cold

1. Speaking and Interactive Communication
  We talked about boys, date and marriage. I ended up with the fact that I may not get married soon. I want to study more and I like my job. I want to focus more. However, I don't think guys who expect to get married soon like me. They usually want me to support him, not did they will support me. That are the usual men. I should find someone unusual or someone abroad? hahaha. Also, I don't want to leave my mom alone on the big holidays. If I should do, I will do the same thing to my parents in law. Sounds cruel and silly, huh? However, that will happen if I get married and my sister does. We have no brothers. Parents who have sons expect them to visit them not them to visit their wives' parents. Nowadays, it changes a lot. However, many daughters visit their parents before the big holiday or after the holiday not on the day.

Men change a little later than women do. He always wanted my family to stay with his family all the holidays not with mom's family. He insisted that she should be part of his family and not of her family at all.

It is very gloomy. I must have seen too much things when I was young. I should have seen only beautiful things, which could make me more positive about marriage.

2. Extensive Reading
Today, Noel didn't disrupt me during reading time. haha. However, I felt so tired so I just tried small rest. I was absent yesterday for stomachache. I didn't get well much. Anyway, I could have lunch with other teachers and Noel. It was not bad.

3. Overseas Culmination
Just on my work, presentation....demonstration class.
I got lots of correction from Dr.Schwab. Oh.... I lost my confidence to do my work.



After all the class, I ate Milmyeon in a restaurant. It was totally wrong choice... I risked myself getting stomachache again to eat but it wasn't worth eating. It was too sweet..T-T
But it was good to hang around in Lzone. I may have new friend from Russia, although he wasn't good at English at all. However, he looked glad when I talked to him first. He looked lonely. I should go tomorrow, again.

Tuesday, January 14th, 2014. Absent

I was sick all day long. When I decided not to go to class, I thought about going to the orthodontist (I call her doctor but...) to check my braces (there is a broken part again after only one day fixing!), but I couldn't move much. From the dawn, before morning, I finished my report and sent it to Nora. From time to time, I threw up several times, even after drinking water. Then I was just knocked down. What happened to me? I am healthy.

Maybe I overworked a littler bit.

However, I was happy to finish my work with 90% of my honesty on my opinion.

How much should I be open to my students?

There was a student who worked really hard. He was not the smart one but he was definitely the most diligent one in the lower level class. He was always good in class, and fortunately my teaching way matched his learning style well. Therefore, he got good scores at the final exam. He got confidence and I thought it was all good.

HOWEVER, it was not all good.

There are some students who are friends with me on facebook. He was one of them. He was one of my students but not special to me. I shouldn't love some students more in front of them, but I can have some I prefer secretly. He was not special to me at all. He was a good student but not the one I wanted to keep in touch for long time. He was always eager to get attention from teachers, and I knew why. He didn't have many friends. He had some, but not enough for the age.

Anyway, once he became a friend on facebook, he kept leaving message on every my post. He clicked all the like, and commented as much as possible. That was little creepy. I wanted to be close to my students, but not this way. He showed too much interest in me and I didn't like it. He should do that to his friends.

One day, he called me on my phone. I was stunned and scared! I didn't give my number to him but he called me through my facebook. I didn't know that someone could call me through facebook. He texted me a lot and I replied some but I got tired soon. I was not his friend. I had not been his homeroom teacher. I might be the teacher he liked but I didn't want to get news from him every month.

He even tried to chat with me whenever I was on facebook. Everytime I logged in facebook, he sent me messages. Oh... even my ex boyfriend didn't do like this! (Because he knew that I hate that kind of behavior)

Another day, he wrote on my facebook that we wanted to be an English teacher and wanted me to cheer him. I wrote him back in English. He said in Korean: Teacher, please translate it in Korean. I can't read it. How ridiculous!

After that, I stopped to text back him and replied back him. I also found out he also sent lots of text to other teachers. Other teachers were afraid of him not having friends in high school. Also, they tried to keep proper distance from him.

I stopped everything. I disconnected friends in facebook, too. However, he kept sending me message by phone or facebook. He kept sending me asking to be friend on facebook. Oh, gush....

I almost forgot him, but time to time he sent messages even while I was in USA. Also, today, I got messages from him in facebook, again! Now, he is so CREEPY and SCARY. What if he did something wrong and blamed me for that?

Nevertheless, I don't like him. Now, I dislike him for all his doings... How can I do to someone who likes me? It is creepy although he is much younger than I am and I was his teacher.

What should I do? I don't want to be involved with him anymore...T_T Am I doing wrong?

Review on Wednesday, January 8th, 2014. Rain. getting cold

1. Speaking
We talked about praise. It is important to get praise for keeping what you do. If you get any praise even it is so small, it could make people go on and on. It works for me, too. When I had hard time for being as a teacher, couple of students sent me text and it saved me.
Last year, I posted a long text on my kakaostory, and some students replied to me like "See you again, next year" or "Let's study together." Those were real big praise I could get.
Yes, I love my boys.

2. Extensive reading
It is good to have time to read a book. I was okay the first period, but second period of extensive reading, I was dozing a lot. Therefore, Heidii and the doctor stayed on the rock for a long time. I don't know why I did that. I slept a lot yesterday.-_-

3. Overseas Culmination
I was on my report. It is really difficult to get a topic. I am just thinking about writing all my experience for this program like others. However, I don't like it. ha.......... What should I do?


Nowadays, I often go Lzone. I try to go there three or four times a week. I just chose there because it is a little close to BUFS and I like to meet new people. Although it is hard for me bring up some topic to talk, I like the idea that hanging around and talking to each others. I should study more about vocabulary but I don't feel like doing it. Sometimes I fee I am stupid because I know what I should do but I don't. Today, I felt so tired and rested for 2 hours in blanket. Then I surfed the internet for a while and now I am writing this. How lazy!

After this program, then I may have to look for hagwons to study more. Lzone is little far from my place. Is there any good places I can learn English more?

Review on Monday, January 6th, 2014, Sunny

I took a walk on the way to BUFS. I felt good. I should take a walk often like this.

1. Writing
Running dictation... It was interesting and somewhat fun but hard and difficult!! Brad, you could have given us some easy work! I am not good at memorizing sentences for short time! I am 29 almost and it means my short-term memories don't work well as they used to do! Also, I am terrible at memorizing nowadays. I am forgetful a lot when I don't like to remember something... Jeff must be laughing at this writing(Are you?). I used to memorize little better in short time when I was in high school but not any more...-_- Anyway, I had to check the sentences for several times before reciting them to the group.

Interestingly, I have never been told that I was smart. Instead of that, teachers always told me that I was so patient and I had a real 'heavy butt'. That meant that once I sat to study, I stayed there for long time and finished my work. This explained a lot. I should put my best effort on whatever I want to get or I should fail. Why? Tricks and tips don't work well for me. The good thing is I usually enjoy what I should do(not paper work!)

How can I use this in my class? I will use this the class after big test or end of semester for refreshment. Or, I may use this as a way to make students memorize the textbook. kkk

P.s. I love the story about a husband and a wife.

2.  Classroom Strategies and Techniques
I like the movie "the untouchable". It does not follow the typical Hollywood movies. (Which tense should I use here???? past? or simple present?) For the opposite reason, I hate the ending of "The Devil Wears Prada". The entire story line is screwed up because of the ending. Why should she choose the stupid boyfriend?-_-++ I know lots of Hollywood movies focus on the love for FAMILY and FRIENDS. However, to me, the boyfriend is so, very, undeniably selfish. Why? If he was in her shoes, he would certainly do the same thing to her and say "I have no choice. You should understand me." And then, he might find another girl who seemed to understand him better because they worked in the same field.

Denis made us do dictowatch which we already had done before we went to USA. Still, it was pretty hard and difficult.... Today was a hard day for two classes... It was fortunate that we had time for watching a movie.

For my students, what kind of movie clip should I prepare? It could be a very difficult question for me.

3. Practicum Presentation
Dr.Schwab was absent. We took our time to prepare(?) the presentation. I finally decided what to do for the presentation.




One of my friend failed again to pass the exam for public school. I felt so sorry for her. I know what she felt... Also I am curious about the result for other friends. Are they preparing the next round(?) of the text? I hope they do...

Friday, January 3rd, 2014. Sunny

1. Speaking
As time goes by, I'd rather not open myself to public. I don't know why, but definitely, I feel uncomfortable now to talk about myself. Being active? I want to do only if......
However, it was good to hear that I looked passionate.
Conscientious. I like this word, but also I don't like this word. Isn't it funny?
I also don't like to look passionate to others. It sometimes hurts me a lot.
I should do or I can't not catch up with others. To chase my goals, I should be passionate on what I want to do. However, sometimes I am so confused.
Am I wrong? Have I done something wrong? What I am doing now? Often, I don't know at all.

So, I don't want to open myself sometimes or more than that. Sometimes it is better for me to make other people believe that I am so selfish(Actually I am!) and lazy(I am, seriously! You should see me on weekend what time I should wake up! And What I do whole day!).

2. Extensive Reading
Read read read and read.
I am reading Heidi. It is fun to read an original novel that I used to read in a short version.
Is it that great to live on a mountain like one in the Alps?

3. Classroom Strategies and Techniques
Denis said that we hijacked his class by watching a movie before the class started. However, it was he who was late... I didn't know why, but there might have been a mistake on timetable.

Nowadays, it is somewhat tiring to take classes everyday. The program should have finished with only one week in Korea for doing presentation and writing a report after three months of USA practicum. It is somewhat strange to take classes after we came back to Korea.

Anyway, it is good that there is no group work.

Review on Thursday, January 2nd, 2014

What I am thankful to : the fact that I have people who care me a lot. 

Whenever I see my phone, I cannot help but smile. I love my best friend.

1. Teaching Culture in English Classroom

Review on logical fallacy. Sometimes it is confusing to find some fallacies in statements.

2. Writing

Find and try to correct errors. I made big chaos in class. hahaha.

3. Classroom administration & Student Counseling

What is this subject for? I don't get it yet. 

2013 superlative.

I finally know why it is important to keep distance when I meet and get socialized with people. However, I try to keep my way. I try to be close to new people. Then if I find out he/she is not for me, I will stay away from him/her.

It is easy way to get hurt a lot. However, it is who I am. It is not easy to change myself.

Review on Tuesday, December 31st, 2013.

The last day of 2013... What have I done for this year?
Although I told my friend that I also regret many things, I felt little proud of myself. I ended up with many things left behind. However, I did many thing last year, like running, studying English, and being socializing with Americans... It is not enough to say I did everything I wanted at beginning of this year, but I am pretty satisfied with what I have done.

1. Classroom Resource & Materials Development

We talked about what we have used in our class. Brad introduced us some useful websites(one of them I saw in Jeff's class). Those looked great. I should check all of them.. when I have time(when? surely soon!)

It is tricky to use Pops in class. Brad said some popular songs has not-good meaning like drug or sex. I know lots of hip-hop have something I don't like teach but I didn't know that really popular songs could have those meanings. I should use songs that I can be sure its meaning.

Well, I don't know many songs, so it may be difficult job.

2. Practicum Presentation

I brought a textbook for open class... The problem is I couldn't find out the lesson I want to do in open class. I may try lessons end of the textbook which I haven't taught before(because the time I should teach that part, all students would be sick and tired of learning English after the final exam....). However, if I try what I have in mind, it would take a long time to do. Also, I am not sure whether it work or not. I should think over more.

I wish the day I should present my lesson, it will snow a lot so I don't have to do in front of many people....

3. Teaching Culture in English Classroom

I didn't feel like studying more today. It was an excuse but it was the last day of the year! So other teachers badgered Mr.Schwab a lot( I just watched them doing. I just said today is the last day.... and I didn't need to do anything more after that. lol) to finish early, so Rob finished the class early after announce what we would do from now on. Huh? Wow.


I just dropped by a cafe and talked with other people and met my friend after that. And...  I heard the worst news of the year on the last day of 2013. I went crazy almost....

Review on Friday, December 27th.

Today's class.
1. Speaking,
2. Extensive Reading, and
3. Classroom Strategies and techniques.

Today's classes were not bad. I mean, easy to follow. I was still tired of jet lag and needed some rest for short trip on Monday to Wednesday. However, not that tired so I was able to study.

We talked about what we miss in America life. I don't know what's wrong with me. However, I really miss life in America a lot where everyone is equal regardless of age. Here, I am so suffocated. Here, everyone says that it is natural that the younger have more work than the older. Why? Everyone agrees with that because they can get rest when they reach that position like the ones they don't like now. However, they want to be like them.

I DO NOT want to be like them. I do handle work which is given to me but I don't want to do other's work because of my young age. Also, I WILL do my work even if I get much older than now. This is my resolution for my whole life. I never make excuse of age. I never say "I am too old to do that." I NEVER give my work to the younger. If I forget this, then I am not who I am.

I know there are much more people who I can respect. However, still there are at least several people in school and they make every problem that they don't manage it by themselves.

Also, I don't understand the concept of 'gift' much. I bought some for gifts but I don't know how much should I give to teachers in my school. I know they work for me while I have been away. However, I do exactly the same when a teacher is away. My case is a little more special because the period is long, but still I don't want to prepare many presents. I am not here for just hanging out. There is a sub teacher and she does my job well.

Sometimes it is ridiculous that I can't take a good chance since I can't find a sub or the principal or the vice principal doesn't want to me go. They often(not always. My ex vice principal was great!) want teachers to work in school rather than have good opportunities to improve themselves. I don't think everything in school in Korea is bad, but they surely adopt the system of America on sub teachers.

I know there should be a problem for using subs like quality of education or consistency of teaching... We should find out some solutions for this. This must not be an obstacle for using subs.


These days I got upset very easily. However, I am really careful not to say anything. If someone sees my blog? This is my blog, so I have the right to hold my opinion. haha.

Review on Thursday, December 26th.

I am back. It is little bewilderment that I am in Korea and live my ordinary life again. Three months in California is long but short. I really wanted to stay there more. I thought a lot and I felt a lot on lots of things. Some of them were really disappointing but some of them were so fascinating that I kept thinking about them.

Today, I was late for the class. I left early, but I had to send a package to an unknown person. A box was delivered to me which is wrong address, and i should send it back. How irritating job it was! It took more than ten minutes. Also, my bus stopped on the way because the door didn't close. The driver tried to close it several times, but it was useless. Ah..... Very joyful start for the program.

I didn't do much today. I mean, there was only one class for we started at 2 o'clock. We just talked about our life after coming back to Korea and gave some tips to teachers from 5+1 program. It was bothering that some teachers spoke Korean whenever Jeff was not in classroom. Well, that was their choice. I just want to try hard as much as possible.

There are two things which I found that I hate: 1. aggressive driving. Here, I should wait for cars. Isn't it funny? People invented cars for its convenience. However, if a person doesn't drive a car, he/she should embrace all the inconvenience in Korea like waiting for car passing, staying alert about cars around. How FUNNY! 2. There is no room between people. On December 23rd, I went to Seoul. I was inside of train waiting for getting out. I was in line and I found out a lade stood behind me too close. There wasn't enough space even for a fist. EXCUSE ME, do you love me? Why do you stand so close to me? I kept glancing at her, but she just looked at me and ignored it. She kept standing too close to me walking though the passage. So, I chose to move my body a little to make space, like shaking my head so my hair spread to make room or doing some small stretching. I really hate strange people being too close to me. I don't understand this Korean custom because no matter how close they stand to each other, the result is almost same. It could make some problem, but they still do that. They think doing in hurry makes big difference, but not at all!!!! Maybe very slight difference? However, is it worth bothering other people?

Oh. I should shut my mouth up, or stop writing. I am too aggressive even as a Korean. That's what I've been told for my life. Dang.

Adele - Someone Like You

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There are lots of cameras and it is too difficult to decide.
However, those look good and I am wondering which one is the best.
I like the first one, but it is rather expensive.

Jeff told me to wait till I go to the USA but... I am not sure if it will cheaper there. Or it could be same thinking about time and transportation that I should.

Everything is up in the air and I am so confused.


Go to sleep. I spent whole day to look up the internet and buy some stuff.
Crazy. This week must be very busy, too.

I am still writing reviews...

I just keep it drafted version not published.

After coming back from Seoul, I feel terribly tired again. I need sleep, first.
I should catch up with all those on this weekend. haha.
(It must be crazy busy!!!)

Still, it is really enjoyable to take the lessons everyday. I don't want to miss anything, although I doze a lot. )-;

I am happy, really happy.

Something irritating

I know everything can't go as I thinking. However, there are something really annoying.

I don't know why the official doesn't give us enough information to us. He sure knows about this program a lot because he manages not only this 3+3 but also other 5+1 courses. I think he knows well enough about what teachers are curious and interested in but he behaves like he doesn't know well or WE must know all in advance.

Today, teachers and I went to City bank to open an account. We need it for paying the bill for homestay in US. Anyone of the group didn't know that we should have an account in this bank. One day a teacher asked him for opening new account just in case. She said he said like this. We MUST open an account before going out and do it OURSELVES.

Nobody knew this before. NOBODY! And he said we should open it now. What? Why didn't you say this before? There is little time to go bank. One hour is not enough to go to bank and open it. We should use weekly check up time or leave early. If he had told us before, we didn't have to go out altogether and crammed into one bank.

It took so long time for several teachers including me to go out and open accounts.
And Denis was angry for teachers being late.

I tried this yesterday in Seoul but I couldn't. I changed my name before and someone(my mom) tried making a credit card with my information. So, I needed more documents. I found out this yesterday in the bank. I was mad at my mom.


Everything he did, I don't like. He delays everything we want to know. If he gave us some information early, it is much easier to prepare anything. I don't like this. ha.....


I know one of characters for officials is waiting till the last time. I do this a lot, but don't if something is related to others!

Trip to Seoul and Gyeonggido.

I am not saying that it was good to miss the class. It was not good because there are lots of things I have to catch up and some professors must be very angry.

However, it was worth spending my time resting somewhere away from Busan.

Of course, I am so tired and have stiff shoulders from lots of walking. I don't know when I can take a rest enough. It was not rest for my body but my spirit? haha.

I didn't think about vacation for this year much. I almost gave up to have some time to rest. I am so lucky to take this course and want to focus on this only.

However, I found out there is an exhibition about Studio Ghibli and I must go there. I must.

Everyone has something in them which makes them feel alive. Mine is anything related to comic or animation. Ghibli is the company(?) or studio of my dream. If I hadn't given up one of my dream, it may have been my another future job, the animator working in Ghibli. haha.

So, I went there and saw about 1300 layouts for 5 hours. It was not enough time. If I lived in Seoul, I would go again and again. I love those pictures, although those are not completed pictures or movies. When I looked around inside the gallery, I felt my heart beating. It seemed to scream to me like 'I want to draw like this! I need practice!'

Seriously, I will make some time to draw cartoon again.

Now, I feel my heart beating again. I hope this is not because of coffee now I am drinking.

Also, I met my friends. One of them is now a mother of a baby. She and I spent 2 years together studying for the test. We shared lots of things those days. Now, we live different places, we are still able to share our thoughts. Well, I should learn how to talk more, though. haha.

Talking with her, I can organize my thought more. It becomes more and more obvious that I really want to study more, and what part I should study after. It is always good to have talk with friends like her. We have common interests and I can tell her everything about my work. She listens to me all without any prejudice which other people always have about teachers. She is a teacher, too. That's why I can share my thoughts with her. Other friends who are not teacher, sorry for this, cannot understand me and still think teaching is better job for theirs because of vacation.

I think they are not satisfied with their jobs.

Anyway, it was good to talk with her and have some time to think. It was a big help.

This is my savior

Coffee! I love you! I can't live without you!

Pulp Fiction

kkkkk. Denis must know why I post this.

   http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pulp_Fiction

I tried to read the explanation, but I have to back to my review. kkk

"But isn't it an old movie?"
hihi.-_- I didn't think that he is that old, because when I speak in English it is like that there is much lower barrier between older(than I am) people and I.

However, 1994, I was in only 3rd grade in elementary school. kk.

nine or ten?


Anyway, is it a good movie that is worth seeing?

Upset

I used to know upset as angry. I was taught like that.
Now, I know a little bit more. It could mean angry, confused, disoriented, etc.
I am upset. I have been upset during the whole night. I couldn't focus on my work and couldn't sleep either.

Today, it must be a tough day.